I'M ALICE.

For the first time like ever, I’m actually trying to initiate conversation and be the one to start building the friendship. I’m always the one that sits back and waits for the other person to spark the fire, and after the ice is broken, I can carry on a friendship. I never make plans, I never contact people first. I’m the lazy bitch who waits for the other person to make the first move. It might be because I’m scared of rejection, but I learned that I gotta risk it if I want to create or maintain good and strong relationships with people.

Now that I’m trying to change that habit, I’ve realized how annoying and needy I must come off as, making pointless small talk, whining about little things, and telling “cool story, bro” stories. I find myself sounding more and more like an annoying little girl who’s constantly seeking for attention. Maybe it’s better if I return to my old ways, being the wallpaper rather than the pestering fly.

I suck at making friends. I’m such a socially awkward penguin.

And yes, I realize my analogies don’t make any sense at all. I’m tired.

A weeks worth of all nighters for nothing.

Why am I a math major again?

It’ll be a miracle if I pass the test or even pass the class.

Fuck math. And I’m fucking exhausted too, so pardon me if I’m grumpy and act like an asshole. The grass is definitely dead on every side.

This chick across from me has the highest voice ever. She literally sounds like she’s on helium. I can’t tell if it’s cute or not. Actually, the voice doesn’t suit her at all, so it’s not cute. Maybe I’m just hatin’.

Currently living off of half-conscious naps and 2-3 hrs of sleep at night this entire week. All-nighter tonight, finish the test (and hopefully rape it), finish all the hw due on Friday, teach Friday morning, and then I can sleep.

I can feel my heart failing on me.

At the FAC at 4:25 AM and someone is snoring really loudly across the room.

Hellooooooooo hell week!

Also, guy sitting next to me reeks of smoke so badly that I have a headache. Now I can’t focus.

fucknicethings:

omg always

Is extremely difficult.

UH just contacted and told me that my grade in microbiology is not sufficient enough to meet admission requirements.

Fuck.

My.

Life.

I’m so very sad and disappointed. :(