No, scratch really. Extremely. Out of boredom (or more like out of not wanting to study), I started looking at what I need to get into the different pharmacy schools, and I have never felt more fucked in my life than now. I only looked at one school, and I’m already about to burst into tears. I can just see my dream slipping out of my hands to where I’m thinking, “why even try?”. In the back of my head, something tells me that maybe, one of those miracles will happen to me, and I will make it into pharmacy school, but in reality, that’s just false hope that will lead me to my misery. I guess I can just keep my fingers crossed that the admission board will consist of elderly people who won’t be able to read the prints on my transcripts signifying my failing academic life.
Thanks to everyone that’s keeping my hopes up and pushing me on. Unfortunately, there’s a difference between thinking you did badly and knowing you did badly, and I know I’m doing badly.